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I booked us a suite at a gorgeous hotel in our city. It was the same place we met our first time. It's funny, but it feels like home when we are there. We shared about 8 hours last night which was an incredible accomplishment for both of us. God we needed it though.
My inlaws were visiting this week. This posed an interesting problem. My wife has been sleeping in the spare bedroom for months now. She had to give that room up to them...and I noticed an attempt on her part to make it look not lived in. I wonder what her therapist would say to that? Needless to say it was a stressful week. By the time Friday came I was ready to escape with my lover.
I left work and picked up a couple of CD's, in particular one that contained a popular radio song that made me think of her often. I then headed to the liquor store and bought a bottle of Chianti and a bottle of Champagne. The thing with us is that it is not just a meeting for sex. Sex is often involved; however neither one of us feels pressure to do that. We are comfortable just sitting on the couch holding one another and talking about whats on our mind. I love that aspect of our relationship. That is gone with my wife. Whether you believe me or not, I have attempted so many times to try and recreate that bond to no avail. At a point you reach out to someone new. We ended up reaching out to each other.
We met and she got into my car. She looked stunning, feminine, breathtaking. We kissed and I told her she looked beautiful. A certain serenity blanketed both of us. We drove to our destination, took valet parking and checked in. It was surreal to me at this point. The entire thing planned in an instant (we are notorious for spontenaity). We luckily had the elevator to ourselves. I backed her into the corner and kissed her the entire ride to our floor.
Once in the room everything in the outside world vanishes. It is us. For us. Is that too much to ask? Is it too much to ask to be unconditionaly loved by another? Why do marriages inevitably seem to degrade to the point of communication being relegated to a few hi's and bye's a day? I struggle with the notion that maybe I chose the wrong spouse? Maybe my lover is the one? Damn.
The night was amazing. I feel I have grown so much as a man since meeting this woman. I know how to make love to a woman now. I always felt I was a competent lover but this is different. While not getting into specifics...it's the way it should be I think. The entire evening was about us, pleasure, consideration, love, attention, passion, and above all listening. God it feels good to be heard, to be listened to. We each confided a deep secret in one another. More of a truth to one another. It was hard hearing it, but so very good hearing what she had to tell me. I am glad she did. What I told her was probably the most difficult thing I have shared with another soul. My trust with this woman is growing beyond trust I have shared with anyone before.....
We shared in one another and it was amazing. It always is.
Until next time.
-dave
Tonight (Friday) is a special night for me. I get to see 'her'. I am a bit nervous but filled with anticipation. We will have about 8 hours together tonight. Things for both of us in our home situations have been a bit shaky lately, so this will be a very nice getaway.
Back to meeting 'her'.
Once I settled in to my colleagues office space for a couple of weeks while my office was being finished, I ended up meeting her by chance. It was strange, a phone call was all it took. I had never seen this woman, but there seemed to be an instant connection with plenty of witty banter.
I experienced a little guilt over the fact that I would make sure that it was I who answered the phone so I could just hear her voice, joke around for a few seconds, and take a message. I dealt with it though. Things seemed very innocent and harmless. Flirting felt good to me.
'She' will tell you that she did not think there was any flirting going on, but I seem to remember an increased number of telephone calls during that period to the office!
We ended up exchanging instant messaging information...and then things got interesting :-)
I will continue tomorrow with some examples of our emails when we began getting to know one another.
-dave
Enjoy your weekend, make someone you love smile.
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Hello everyone. This is my very first entry in my very first blog. I have been seeking an outlet for the story I have to tell. The only problem is that my story cannot be told in traditional circles. My story is a love story of course :-)
First a little bit about me. I live in a normal sized city. I am 30 years old, married and have two kids. My wife and I have been together for close to 9 years! We met young, continued through University together, and eventually married.
After the birth of our first child, I noticed an emotinal distance from my wife. I tried to work through it with her, but I seemed to be blocked at every turn. Our sex life disappeard. Our intimacy vanished. She lost her self in work and shut the door on me.
Due to the profession she is in, she has erratic shift work hours. Over the past two years I noticed a tendancy for her to work evenings. It seemed like a subtle move, but we ended up only seeing each other at the most 1-2 days per week. I would arrive home for work, grab the kids from the sitter, and be home alone all night. This became very very depressing for me. I became sad and distanced.
Things gradually worsened and she moved into the spare room. She claimed the bed was more comfortable. But after 6 months I began to seriously doubt that was the only issue.
During this period I felt empty, depressed, a shell and unwanted. Many times I tried to talk to my wife about our situation but things usually digressed to an argument that lead no where.
Also during this time at work a new colleague started. After several months of getting to know this guy I ended up having to share this individuals office space while my office was being moved to a new location. My getting to know my lover began when she called him one day and I answered......
Stay tuned. My lover will be posting a brief history of herself shortly as well. We are going to take this story slowly. It is exciting, interesting and worth the read. Trust me.
For now....this is Dave signing off...
Peace in the world.
-dave
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