Contentment
Well. It's been a whirlwind day. Up at 3 AM. I left my home just after 5. I bid my wife and kids farewell. It was very tearful for both my wife and I. That was the single hardest thing I have had to endure in my life and I have been through some extreme situations. I broke down in my secretary's arms at work. She is like a grandmother to me. She gave me her home number and told me to call if I needed anything. I feel a certain satisfaction for the human race when I see a pure act of kindness like that. I have only known this woman for 4 months.
Now. I don't even know how to express what I am feeling towards my lover right now. Some of the words to describe her over the past 5 days: tender, loving, nurturing, caring, soothing, compassionate, sympathetic, kind, warm, thoughtful, unselfish, adoring, and gentle, gentle, gentle.
This woman was able to set me up in an incredible apartment, of which this blog is being produced. I am surrounded by her influence. I see it. Her colours seem to caress the walls. Candles, ubiquitous. Photographs, plants, paintings, furniture, her touch. My move has been effortless because of this woman. She has taken care of me. She has gone out of her way to ensure my comfort. She brought me music. I didn't thank her, I overlooked it at the time..but that was so thoughtful, not just because it was music. It was her music. It is what defines her. What she likes. What she grew up with. This is the music that shaped her into the woman that she is today. That gorgeous, chic, sensuous, dark, mysterious woman who has been contained far too long.
I love her. She is coming here momentarily. I have lit the place with candles. She has seen these candles before. She has not seen them lit with me in the room. How can I ever express my gratitude to her? Saying thank you doesn't seem to be enough. Perhaps living thank you everyday will be what is required. I love her. I feel contentment tonight.
-dave
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