Random thoughts and rants........ 

Random thoughts and rants........

I played golf today. It was minus fricken 800, but I played a round of golf today :-) Thanks to the miracle of modern technology, we can more easily fatten ourselves, by playing indoor golf where no walking or physical ability of any kind is required, and you can fill your cake hole with all you can eat pizza, wings, nachos and beer. Damn. Hehehehe. I steered clear of the CarboHydrate Autobahn but managed to shoot a reasonably decent 89.

I have a new side project. I am a pretty creative person and somewhat musically inclined. A friend of mine owns a reasonably successful company and he is letting me do some audio work for him! He's looking for some different samples of music from around the world to mix with a promotional DVD he is producing. I think it is healthy to get a little side project to kill the lonliness I sometimes feel. So I am going to begin tonight mixing some demos for him :-)

On another note there is something I think you should know about my situation. My wife does not have to work. She conscientiously chooses to work. I am so financially secure right now that many times in the past I have suggested she leave work. I want you to know that I don't sit up here at night bitching and complaining that I am alone...only to find out we can barely support our kids. Jesus that's not the case at all. The profession that I chose, for so many different reasons, pays ridiculously well. She does NOT have to work. She chooses her own schedule. This is an important insight into the state of where things are between us. Don't you think? Things aren't toxic. We do not fight incessently. Things are just things. We co-habitate. Sort of. We seem to just move on autopilot.

My lover. Something is happening with us that I can't quite explain yet. We are both feeling new found freedoms with one another that are unexplainable. I told her it is like we have reached another plane of understanding and connection with one another. It's hard to explain, but it is like a connection that says "everything will be okay, don't worry sweet lover, I am here right beside you". We are smiling together right now. Apart, but together :-)

Time to compose some music....but first.............a cigarette....I know I know......but damn I love 'em once and awhile ;)

I'll see you when I see you ;)

-dave