Meet Nancy
I am Nancy. A wife. A mother. And now, a Lover.
I find it to be quite the challenge, introducing myself, providing a little insight as to who I am, and how and why I made that choice, to take a Lover.
My husband and i have 3 children, and with the birth of our third, came many changes. Firstly, our third was an "oops!".. so we dealt with the emotional roller-coaster of our lives leaving the direction we'd now set for ourselves (as a family with two children), to that of diapers again, etc. Secondly, my husband made a change in his professional life, before our son was a year old. That's when our lives as a 'couple' started to change..
With his new direction, there was a compromise in 'job security'. With me being a 'stay-at-home-Mom' now (i'd left work after many years, to retain some 'quality of life' at home), and he being the sole-provider - it created stress. By nature, my husband is a quiet person. He's a gentle man, peaceful, and very private. His family is his private world, and at work, he is selective as to whom he invites in. It is amazing how NOW, our different personalities seem to really make a difference. I am a very open, energetic and socially needy person. When i left work and all my friends.. I adjusted to a tremendous lifestyle change. Email was my salvation - which will be quite relevant later..
Over the past 3 years or so, we became distant. Our intimacy became sporadic.. and life seemed to now be "just the way it is". I missed him terribly. He seemed to withdraw from me, when I needed him the most. I became lost in my kids, in my friends, in my activities/projects inside and outside the home. What else could I do.. I was lonely and I needed to feed my emptiness. Straying from my marriage, betraying the trust and confidence of my husband, all things that I can genuinely say, I'd not ever contemplated. Not ever.
I love my husband, I love my children. But lost in the wife/mother world, what I realized I missed terribly, was me "Nancy, the woman". I needed to find her again.
You know Dave's story .. You know that Dave found that woman - me.
We spoke on the phone (as he was temporarily sharing my husband's office), he was a fresh voice in my ear and a refreshing one at that. I am a very friendly and open person, and I enjoyed talking to him. The odd phone calls to my husband's office, the emails, the instant messaging .. our relationship had begun to take shape. It was completely innocent.. we found out a little about each others lives, etc. Not an inkling did I have, not a clue that this man was so focused. It was about a year later, that we had our first meeting. That sunny and warm fall day.. (he actually bought me flowers !! .. that alone, was an oddity - flowers from another man!).
I will never forget the day Dave said these words to me: "I want to be your Lover". I thought I was going to die!! My heart just stopped. Never in a million years have I considered such a thing. An affair?! O my god! I couldn't!
So I thought
The guilt i felt was absolutely incredible. My stomach was in knots. I would think to myself, "I can't be speaking to this man like this.. I'm married! .. and so is HE. But soon the desire to have my innermost needs fulfilled, far surpassed my torment. I needed to hear what my Lover was telling me his sweet, sexy words in my ear. I needed to feel his 'needs' and his 'desires'. We needed so badly, what each other was offering.
So I took a lover. And he is amazing.
I'll let you in on a few sexy things he does for his lover. I'll let you know how he came to me with such amazing force, focused energy, and yes.. intentions.
Talk soon!
Nancy
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